The conflicted Ninja

I've no doubt mentioned it to most probably everyone I've ever come across on the scene .You know the people that we actually get to know - and not just shag... Although let's be honest, with my constant verbal diarrhoea, there's probably a high chance I've already told you during a shag, or an orgy.. (Which if that's the case, you may want to skip past this post; wasting one's time reading something you already know is never a good thing but then again. I've always been able to better explain myself writing, as verbally was always quite difficult. (you can blame the dyspraxia and social stigma for that)  Hehehehe....  But when I first started to watch porn - and use it to actually properly wank and not just laugh mindlessly at it, the whole thing was such a taboo thing at the time, that I had to constantly hide it. The shame would consume me at times, even though I knew deep, deep down - that there was possibly nothing to be ashamed about! I still felt ...

Wasn't expecting a fantasy like that to pop into my head. Had a really awesome night at Dv8 and for a couple of hours afterwards and it went along the lines of  something like this... _____________________________________________ As I'm totally writing this from my memory, I'm bais in the sense it's completely from my own perspective. Although I do enjoy to perve around at everyone. This account of events consist entirely of pockets of time which I really enjoyed and are awesome moments which I can fully remember later on and usually in an impressive HD manner. {The only time you should ever go into the past, is to enjoy and perve other past experiences. Hehe} If I'm honest the majority of the night was pretty damn awesome so this might be a long account of events. __________________________________________ Me and Paul walked into the club feeling like the absolute sex gods as we are….. (well in our minds anyway hehe)  Basically this girl turned me down i...

  The sad thing about it, is it’s eventually going to effect gay marriage, access to contraceptives and even interactional marriage. It really does like we've been somehow teleported back to the 1950's the space of a couple of days. I honestly am struggling to even try and comprehend why now, why after everything with covid and the war with Russia. (Which of course is only really getting started-let’s be honest here.) And I could have sworn it was only in the news a month ago that good old Biden was going to make the morning after pill available? Ah that whole delusional crumb of hope hey.  I think that maybe Covid was just a way they could pull the wool over peoples eyes. Did that how situation just merely show the true power of the 'state?'. 'NO?!'                           I think it was actually the complete opposite, it was done to fool people into believing that the state (the governme...

 I don't know who needs to know this but I'm going to say it anyway... You can be the most intelligent person on this planet, but if you don't have any emotional intelligence to go along it, then that intelligence is wasted. What good is it going to do if your trying to put forward an argument, one that's based upon true knowledge and logic, but if you get triggered while doing so, your effectively now operating from your monkey brain, and you cannot no longer learn in that state. Your psychological processes, your schemas are no longer clear. You're no longer grounded, your angry and have jumped on the defence, your technically temporarily stuck within within the same part of your brain that was fully disconnected from the rest throughout your entire  childhood... Like that of a monkeys.. This is neurobiology correct. But now you’re replying within the argument - not to respond to what the other person is saying, but you’re defending what your original point was. C...

It has been way too long since I've wrote anything on this blog. But now that my degree is well and truly back on track (I've passed the 1st two TMA's..) And as my most recent piece - which is yet to be marked.. Was a presentation on the criminalisation and pathologisation of the LGBTQ + community.. I'm going to hope that I pass that - because as being someone who is part of the Bdsm and Kink community.. I'm going to only hope that I know enough on that subject.. Hehe.. Truth be told, there was actually so much that I didn't know while researching for it.. So there you go.. When you think you know a lot on something.. Its always fun to be in that moment.. When your sitting there.. And a thought pops up into your your consciousness.. 'well you thought you knew loads didnt you'.. Ironically I did a tiktok video that very evening regarding the criminal justice system and how it perceives cases of BDSM... And there's this fabulous gay psychologist who wo...

 So I may be completely raving crazy - which isn't actually new news is it.. But I enrolled on the module that I failed last year.. The one that I couldn't manage to finish. And somehow this week.. (the very same week the module actually starts) I'm having to help my baby daddy pack up (and chuck out) 6 years / 3 floors worth of stuff.. Pack it and help him to move it all. As stressful as all that may be, I'm actually really thankful at the same time of getting them somewhere.. So it's not as stressful as it would be - if they had no where to go.. So sadly - again the blog may have to take a bit of a back burner for a bit... It's a shame because I actually have a few ideas of some awesome short stories that you may all like. So maybe once I ensure that I'm on track with the module... I can occasionally keep working on the small erotica stories. Compared to my last blog that I had 5 years ago - this one isnt that big anyway.. So I shouldn't feel too sad.....

What an amazing 4 weekends we've just managed to have, one after the other..(its somewhat crazy to think this post has taken me 4/5 weeks, but oh well..) 💓💓💓💓 Addmitenly being refused entry into pleasures a couple of weeks ago on a Friday night was a bit of a bitch slap in the face but hey ho... It is what it is... (What's causing me more distress - is that I was only telling people on our other social media platforms that our clubs will never bring in these policies regarding the vaccine passports a mere few Months ago... Like 90 days... I was making statements which basically contained this..  "The vanilla places will go along with government policy and laws, the pubs and all the nightclubs will have to go along with it all but our smaller sex clubs will be fine.. We won't need to be vaccinated on order to carry on enjoying life, we don't be indirectly forced or blackmailed. It will be fine.. " Oh wow.. I was wrong, we were both wrong.. ((anythough we wo...